Issues…. We all Got’em

I have done a lot of soul searching recently and have come to the conclusion that not everyone is good to have in your life!

Some say your parents are yours forever no matter what!!!!

Well they are right, I mean you cant literally change who made you but that doesn’t mean that you have to allow them into your life if they seem to corrupt it…. Sometimes its better to let them go if the stress is too much for you.

I have let my father Go! Its sad that I never really had one; well I take that back I had my papaw and that is who I will remember even though he has passed. That is the man who I consider my true father!!! He was there for me no matter what, he showed me how to through ball, how to be a hard worker, how to fix stuff and even how to be just a good person!

My real father was never around… But to hear him tell it he was always there….. When he did show up which wasent often it was like he was the world!!!! However most of the time I sat looking out the window waiting for someone that would never show!!!!! And maybe that part of me is that part of him; as I am not the best parent myself!!! So why do these things stick with us? Cant I just move on?

I have always looked for love in all the wrong places. Possibly looking for that father figure. I would sleep around with older guys and put myself in situations that were dangerous. All to be let down in the morning or the next week or however long it took to realize I could never find what I was looking for!!!!

I dont understand how I have let this little piece of me take so much of my life as if it were a huge grenade that exploded and took ruin to everything good about the person I was meant to be!

My mom always told me that I was sensitive growing up that she couldn’t even hardly yell at me without me getting my feelings hurt and begin to cry! So maybe that is what happened; this world made me cold! You know because sensitive people dont make it in the world we live in!!!!

Even though I wouldn’t know what a real father is supposed to do or how to act except for good ‘ol papaw…. I do know how their not supposed to act!

I know that you dont cause harm or take them places that could cause harm… Knowing past issues! You dont only need your kid when you need help with something! You dont take things for granted because you have a parental authority…..

Which is why I have let my father go!!!

I know I left details out but that may be another story, another day!!!!

I dont even know when or if I will publish this, but it felt good to let it out……

Thank you for reading.

Comments and follows are always welcome!!!!!

Until next time….. Carry on, stand tall, keep your eye on the prize!!!!

 

 

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“Little Bit”

It is a sad day in my little world! You see I found a dog, (nothing new if you know me personally) they have a tendency of finding me! Ask my husband as we have 4 dogs already lol well 7 if you want to include the ones next door at my mom’s house…..
However this dog right here I have been fostering since Sunday hoping to reunite her with her owners L but no luck has come. Little Bit (That’s what I have been calling her) well because I am not supposed to name her and she is so much smaller than my other dogs…. I am supposed to be finding her a home but I just really Love her as I do all dogs. She loves my husband also, she snuggles with him more than she does me… it’s kind of funny to see a grown man and a little bitty dog but they really do fit quit well together…. To her He is her protector, her life saver, her forever home; although he loves dogs just not as much as I do!!!
Anyway the point to this is in trying to find “Little Bit” a home I have come to the conclusion that I don’t think anyone is good enough for her, or can take care of her the way she should be…… Call me the crazy dog lady if you want but, my dogs are like my kids…. Don’t tell my kids but I probably love the dogs more….lol my dogs don’t argue with me, call me mean or anything…. Worst thing they do is have an accident on the floor! They love me truly and deeply unconditionally.
Little Bit is such a character she has little dog syndrome which is the same for humans…. When you have to bark and growl at all the bigger dogs to let them know you will NOT be taken down easy….. She is so lovable and tries so very hard to fit in with the pack but my big dogs see her as an outsider! Now I know I have raised them better than that but they have lived a sheltered life meaning they are their mommy’s babies and now out of the blue mommy is loving on this new little fur ball…..I am sure they are thinking this is a bunch of crap as I have been getting those looks as if I am a traitor…. I tried to explain to them that what if they were lost and needed help wouldn’t you want someone to be nice to you? However my talks are not seeming to work.
So moral of the story is I am in search of a forever home for “Little Bit”! Until I find one that I see is fit for the life of the queen she is she will remain here in her temporary palace. Pic placed below so you can fall in love too!

UPDATE: Little bit is still with us in her Temporary “Forever” Home!!!!! I am not seeing her finding another and as you can see my husband has grown kind of fond of her as well!!!!

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My Little Bit

Striking Out!!!!!

So I have been doing this Home business thing for going on 2 weeks now….

It really sucks as I cant seem to get anyone to join or even go to my website; which was beautifully made… (Thank you Stone Evans)

I have written blogs, posted to all social media and done all the things that were asked of me to do but still NOTHING!!!!!

I know, I know I am supposed to stay positive, but it seems the only way you get traffic or anything is to scam someone or buy it; which does not make since to me but Hey, I am not the professional here! I also know Rome wasent built in one day but I also know that (denial) LOL (the Nile) is not just a river in Egypt!

I am not sure what to do! Should I give up put more effort back into my day job…. BTW which is slacking because of trying to put more time and effort into this!

I just cant afford to buy the top dollar trafficking tools and all the fancy marketing items right now!

So I guess the question to all this is do I keep pushing on or just call it a loss! I do love blogging and writing though…. If there is one thing that has come out of this as it has gotten me writing which I have missed dearly!

I also am wondering if affiliate’s meaning I make money, You make money = We make money; then why dont you get the traffic for free since they are already successful? Then once you are established you can buy into all those products…. I dont know Call me crazy for thinking when someone under you succeeds it shows a direct result of who you are. I know once again someone is asking for something for free which trust me I know all to well that is never the case, not only in marketing but in the real world!!!! Nothing is Ever FREE! We all pay one way or another.

I will ponder on this for a week or so and see how it goes. Some feedback would be great! That is if anyone reads this…..

Until next time!!!!!

UPDATE: I have given up on the whole marketing attribute as I think I do better just writing…. I am not really a salesperson but for all my friends that do I will gladly support you any way I can….

 

Oh My Brain!!!

Sometimes I just wake up and wish I hadn’t….. You know I really despise judgmental people, but yet I am so judgmental about myself….

What a hypocrite I am!!! I have sat all day and procrastinated even writing this blog…..

Would you like to hear some of my reasons why that I have come up with in my head…

Here goes…

  1. No one is going to like it anyways
  2. Its gonna be crappy anyways
  3. I can’t write that for the world to see, they will think I am crazy!!!
  4. I am so tired…
  5. I cant get motivated to get off this couch

Okay so there is just a few. I hate days like this when I wish my head was not attached to my body!!!!

So now what to do about it… Well I did get up off the couch and came in here to join you on this journey that were taking together to rediscover ourselves; so I guess thats a start…

I still have a house to clean, dinner to make and a whole list of (TO DO’S) that i wrote down ….. Most of them from yesterdays list that did not get completed…..

Well I am not feeling a whole let better, but now I am feeling a rush to get things done…. lol so maybe I should go work on them…

I am sure there is a greater plan for me in the future and I hope you stick it out with me….

So until next time my friends!!!!!!

Welcome Welcome, Coffee or Tea anyone???

I love to write!

Always have guess I always will…..

Sometimes I feel like my words are said better with paper and pen!

So I have decided to start a personal/life blog. I am hoping you will join me on my journey. I love feedback of any kind as it always helps to have other opinions as sometimes I dont give my self such good advice!!!!! 🙂

I will start by telling you a bit about me. I am somewhat complicated! I feel as though life throws things at me, good and bad just to see if I am looking! I am out of practice and have not been very good at catching lately, but that’s another story.

I am a mother of fur-babies and children, I am married, love to garden, love herbal remedies, reading, and nature. I love learning new things. I also love adventure, but I also love to be organized and make plans….. I told you I was complicated….LOL

Anyway; My fur-babies names are Ella, Bella, Gracie, Fancy and the newest member is Little bit…. I wrote a blog on her which I will share at a later date.

My biological children are Jordan, Brittany,  and Nikki; my children through marriage are Dylan and Emmie.

Oh, and my other child whom I acquired through marriage is Sam…. My biggest kid of all, but yet my rock and other half!!!!

I dont have any friends but my Mom and family…. I guess you could say I am kind of a loner, but I have just learned through this thing called life that its not about the quantity, Its about the quality of people you have in your life!

I have been a little down lately and life has thrown some definable curve balls my way. It always seems to help when I get things out, but talking is not my best asset by far… Now dont get me wrong… I run a company and talk to people all the time but on a more professional level which is different than spilling your guts out to someone!!!!

So my guts will be included in this blog…. The good, the bad, and the ugly!!!!!