My life revolves around the feeling of not knowing who I am anymore! I wonder what was I like? Who was that girl before life happened! I was looking back on photos (which i will share) but i was thinking what went wrong? How did I end up here…..
Feeling so lost, alone and afraid of every move I make that I might me doing it wrong; and of course I usually am because I am my worst critic! I can remember the good ‘ol days when life just seemed to be simple, times were slower and well people were nicer…. This world and Yes My decisions have made me bitter and cold and wanting to numb out all the feelings.
For those who dont know me personally I will let ya in on a little secret! I have used drugs and alcohol to mask these feelings from the world most of my life! Now if you look at me differently knowing this that is okay because you wont be the first and I am sure wont be the last, and as I said before I am my worst critic, and most dangerous person to me is ME! So there’s not much anyone can say or do that I haven’t already to myself!
Okay so now that we got that out of the way lets get back to how to rediscover ourselves and not feel like a crappy person all the time. So how do I find this girl? Is she hiding somewhere within me… I’m chunky so there is lots of places she could be hiding…… 😉
So lets start with what do I like? Well I like Pizza, movies, reading, Writing, nature, photos, art Philosophy….. Okay that looks like a good start. Now how often do I do these things?
Pizza = Sometimes ( Not as much as I would like)
Movies = A Lot ( could be doing other things on list)
Reading = Varies ( Could do more if I cared to)
Writing = More now ( Grateful for starting Blog)
Nature = Not enough ( Not as much as I would like)
Photos = Used to ( Not as much as I would like)
Philosophy = Hardly ever ( Not as much as I would like)
Okay so there seems to be a pattern here of ( Not as much as I would like)???? So how can I change it? I want to be that happy and carefree girl again. So I searched the wonderful Google and these are some steps I came up with to helping you find your way.
4 Essential Steps to Rediscovering Yourself
It’s impossible to change history. But we can rediscover ourselves. We can reclaim our seemingly lost qualities and talents. And even our very essence, our soul. It is never too late.
Here are four essential steps to help you rediscover yourself.
- Recognize the Loss
Are you living life on automatic? That’s the essence of being lost. Busyness conveniently covers the pain. But one day, a trickle of grace filters through. A tiny light illuminates a slice of darkness.
When that happens, don’t hesitate for a moment! Capture the grace, dwell in the light, and dare to ask: “Have I lost a part of myself?” The answer may instantaneously appear. Or, like me, the question may dance for awhile in the deepest recesses of your brain until clarity beautifully dawns.
- Identify the Missing Parts
What are you missing? Have you lost yourself altogether? Or are you missing pieces and parts? Try using some of the methods listed in part 4 – like writing, dialog, or art – to unearth the truth.
Questions for reflection:
- Who am I? Is this who I want to be?
- What am I missing?
- Which parts am I missing?
- What am I longing for?
- What were my dreams as a child, a teen, a young adult?
- What were my passions as a child, a teen, a young adult?
- How do I want my life to look? Today? In 5 years? When I die?
- What are my values?
- What do I cherish most highly?
- What brings me happiness, satisfactions, a sense of accomplishment?
- Explore How You Got Off Track
There are so many ways you can lose yourself. From the voice of your own inner tyrant to the people and circumstances that touch you constantly throughout the day. Any one of us can easily feel swept away by the countless demands, expectations, and overriding commitments that come to rule one’s life in a seemingly inescapable way.
Until next time…. Enjoy the photos , BTW I am the little blonde…